Radioactive Chapter Seventeen
Avery opened the bus door after checking everywhere outside for Kate. Coming up empty handed she had decided to check the last place she knew of. The tour bus. Shutting the door behind her she chewed on her lip, "Kate?" she asked not seeing the brunette out front anywhere. "I've checked every where else. I know you are here."
Not getting a response Avery walked farther back on the bus, coming to a stop when she found Kate sitting in the back room. "I was looking for you," she spoke as she went to sit down next to her sister-in-law. "Shane's an ass."
"But Shane was right," Kate said as she turned to look at Avery. "Zac's trapped in Atlanta and he's never coming back. All because he just wanted to contribute," she frowned before laughing bitterly. "I never even said goodbye to him today because as much as I was scared that he wouldn't come back I thought he would and I thought there would be time to yell at him."
Avery frowned as well pulling Kate to her, "You may still get a chance to yell at him," she spoke trying to be optimistic but deep down she feared Zac would never come back. That Merle would never come back and it was that thought that scared her too. If Merle was gone for good it would ruin her sister. It would ruin Daryl.
Why the fuck did she even care what happened to Daryl? He was nothing to her. Never had been yet something had changed unknowingly for her it seemed. Something had changed and she didn't know why nor did she like it. She didn't like the fact that she was beginning to care for the youngest Dixon brother.
"You know I keep thinking about when I realized I loved him," Kate muttered as a lump formed in her throat. "I kept feeling as if I was falling more and more for him. I didn't want to admit it though because I had dated Isaac before. I was scared Zac would be freaked out by that but then one day I literally fell," she laughed trying to fight off the tears that wanted to come. "He caught me and I knew the moment our eyes met I was in love with that man and I confessed it right then and there. I always wanted to tell our future kids that story but now I'll never get too. Without Zac this baby and I our as good as dead."
Listening to Kate's story Avery felt guilty as her mind went to her hunting time with Daryl and how she had fallen and he had caught her. The act of him catching her was what had to have changed how she felt towards him. It's what made her see that he wasn't as bad as Merle but if he kept looking to his brother for everything he could be.
"Daryl caught me when I fell," she muttered without really even thinking. The words coming out of her mouth before she could stop them. When she realized what she had said she blushed and hoped Kate hadn't heard her.
Kate raised an eyebrow at Avery's words but she didn't say anything. Instead she decided to keep talking about Zac even if it hurt her. Talking about him was the only thing reminding her she had to keep going now. At least until she died somehow.
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"Best not to dwell on it," Zac spoke as he watched Rick from where he sat in the back. He could tell the man was dwelling on Merle being stuck on the roof. "Merle getting left behind. Nobody's going to be sad he didn't come back," he said honestly even though his mind flashed to Jessica and then Daryl. "Except maybe my sister who is semi dating the bastard and Daryl."
"Daryl?" Rick asked as he turned to look at Zac briefly.
"His brother," Zac answered as he heard the siren wailing again. This time as it came closer he realized it was a car alarm and the moment he heard a man hollering or screaming for joy he knew then where Glenn had went. Glenn had stolen a car.
"At least somebody's having a good day," Morales smiled from the passenger seat after watching Glenn pass by the truck.
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After chatting with Kate for a bit longer Avery finally convinced her to cheer up some. At least a bit to come back outside. "If Shane's an ass again just hit him and blame pregnancy emotions," Avery laughed as she shut the bus door once Kate was outside.
"That sounds tempting actually," Kate teased as she walked with Avery to the front of the RV. Coming to a pause she took in her surroundings. A smile creeping on her face as she watched Miranda try to break her kids up from fighting over a toy. Nikki of course wasn't far off though her own boys seemed pre-occupied with playing in the mud and Kate knew they'd need a shower tonight.
Spotting Amy sitting in a chair under the awning Avery looked at Kate, "You okay to be left alone?" she asked as she raised an eyebrow.
Kate nodded, "I'm fine. If I get depressed again I'll just stay out here and remember that I have to keep moving on. For me and the baby as long as I can," she shrugged. Her words may have been lies but Avery didn't have to know that.
Giving Kate a smile Avery left her and went to go sit down in the free chair beside Amy though before she could say anything she paused hearing what sounded like a car alarm. Sitting up from the chair she moved out from under the awning looking up at Dale. She could hear the others coming up here too.
"Talk to me Dale," Shane said as he stood from where he had been with Lori and Carl.
Dale who had been looking through a pair of binoculars couldn't see anything even though he sure could hear it. "I can't tell yet," he answered Shane.
"Is it them?" Avery asked feeling slightly hopeful as she gave Amy a smile. Maybe their people had made it out of Atlanta. "Are they back?"
Looking through the binoculars again Dale just shook his head, "I'll be damned," he muttered as he saw a red sports car coming to the camp.
"What is it?" Amy asked at Dale's words.
"Stolen car is my guess," Dale answered as he put the binoculars down.
Hearing Dale's answer Avery just made a face but stayed frozen in her spot. Watching the car pull into camp she bit her lip and held her breath hoping for good news. When she saw Glenn step out of the car she moved from her spot walking closer to the car.
"Holy crap turn that damn thing off," Dale told Glenn as he looked down at the boy from where he stood on the RV.
Glenn looked up at Dale throwing his arms up, "I don't know how," he said honestly.
Avery couldn't help but chuckle at that or the fact that Shane was now being an ass to Glenn. Being rude about him poping the hood while at the same time Amy asked about her sister. It was Amy's question that Avery was more concerned about. If her sister was okay then the others had to be too.
"What's going on?" Jessica asked as she walked down to stand beside Avery. She had been taking a nap until the car alarm had woken her up.
Before Avery could answer her she heard Glenn telling Amy that Andrea was okay and she put her hand up to shush Jessica.
"Everybody is fine," Glenn muttered as he looked at Amy and the rest of the people who had gathered around. "Well Merle not so much," he retracted his comment.
Hearing that Merle wasn't okay Jessica looked at Avery, "What the hell is going on?" she asked her sister. "And don't shush me."
Sighing Avery ran a hand through her hair. She had been happy to hear the others were okay but it was Glenn's words about Merle that made her stomach drop, "The group got stuck in a department store. We all thought they were gone," she said as she smiled. "I don't know what he means about Merle though."
Before Jessica could reply to her though she watched as a truck now pulled into the camp. A truck she really hoped was carrying her brother.
Watching as the first person got out Avery smiled some seeing Andrea who ran to meet Amy in a hug. Spotting Zac coming behind Andrea, Avery smiled more and she turned her head in time to see Kate running to meet him.
Feeling someone run into him Zac grinned as he looked to see Kate, pulling her into a hug. "I never thought I'd see you again," he muttered as he held her closer to him.
"You are a welcome site," Dale said as he looked at Zac.
Zac just laughed before pulling away from Kate and walking to Dale to hug the old man. He had grown semi close to him over the time at camp. He had helped him or tried to help him on a few occasions of working on his RV though he usually ruined it or made it worse.
"Thought we had lost you folks for sure," Dale admitted honestly as he pulled away from the hug.
"How did ya'll get out of there anyway?" Shane asked watching as everyone embraced and welcomed each other back.
"New guy," Glenn answered Shane's question as he scrunched up his face. "He got us out."
Shane looked at Glenn feeling confused, "New guy?" he asked him.
"Yeah some crazy vato who just got into town," Morales answered as he held his wife and kids close to him. "Hey helicopter boy, come say hello," he called out to Rick. "Guys a cop like you."
Avery who had been watching the exchange chewed on her lip as she looked to Shane. The moment his face changed as the new guy came into view she raised an eyebrow. The look was one of recognition. Could Shane really know this man? It was when she heard Carl holler out dad that she had gotten her answer. The new guy, the one who had saved their group was Lori's husband. A man who was supposed to be dead.
Turning her head to look as Lori and Carl embraced the man Avery chewed on her lip as she saw the look Lori shot Shane. It was one she'd hate to be on the receiving end of and she was sure if looks could kill Shane Walsh would have died on the spot.
Out of the corner of her eye Avery watched as Jessica stalked off clearly concerned about Merle who hadn't returned with the rest of them.
"I should go after her," Zac spoke to Kate as he watched Jessica stalk off. He needed to fill her in on what had happened to Merle.
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Later that night after telling Jessica about Merle, Zac sat at the campfire with Kate. Even now holding his wife he had zoned out. All he could remember was Jessica yelling that she hated him and how she had completely broken apart at the news of Merle being gone. Zac had wanted to stay and comfort her but Avery had came and convinced him to go saying she'd take care of Jessica for now.
It was when Dale mentioned Daryl though and if there had been any thought given of what they were gonna do that brought Zac out of his thoughts. Daryl would be another person upset with this predicament but at least Zac hadn't made no promises he failed on to Daryl.
"I'll tell him," T-Dog offered as he looked down at the campfire. Ever since leaving the department store things had been like a daze for him and he kept getting eat up with more guilt over the fact that he had dropped the key. "I dropped the key it's on me."
"I cuffed him," Rick spoke up feeling like it should be him who told Merle's brother. "That makes him mine."
"Guys it's not a competition," Zac sighed as he held Kate closer to his body. Ever since he had thought he would never see her again he couldn't stop holding her. Wanting her as close as he could have her. "I don't mean to bring race into this but it might sound better coming from a white guy," he finished his statement as he turned to look at T-Dog.
Closing his eyes T-Dog sighed, "I did what I did. Hell if I'm gonna hide from it."
"We could lie," Nikki added in as she rested her head on Isaac's shoulder.
"Or tell the truth," Andrea said as she looked across the fire at Nikki. "Merle was out of control. Something had to be done or he'd have gotten us killed," she said as she looked away from Nikki and then towards Lori. "Your husband did what was necessary and if Merle got left behind it is nobodies fault but Merle's."
Dale made a face at those words. Those words would just make Daryl worse. "And that's what we tell Daryl?" he asked sarcastically. "I don't see a rational discussion to be had from that, do you?" he asked as he turned to Andrea who was beside him. When she didn't answer but only looked down he continued, "Word to the wise we are going to have our hands full when he gets back from his hunt."
"I was scared and I ran," T-Dog said as he looked away from the campfire. "I'm not ashamed of it."
Zac looked over at T-Dog, "We were all scared. We all ran," he shrugged not getting what the man was trying to say. "What's your point?"
"I stopped long enough to chain that door," T-Dog finally admitted to the others. "Staircase is narrow. Maybe a half a dozen geeks can squeeze against it at any one time. It's not enough to break through there. Not that chain. Not that padlock," he said shaking his head. "My point Dixon's alive and he's still up there handcuffed on that roof. That's on us," he sighed before standing up and heading towards his tent.
After T-Dog got done talking Zac stood up as well without even saying a word to Kate. Heading towards the tour bus he climbed inside being careful not to wake the others who were in there sleeping. Finding his pajamas he walked into the bathroom and shut the door.
Stripping out of his dirty clothes he turned the water on and stepped in. It was when he was in the shower under the water that he broke down crying. His sister was breaking down over a man who was still alive chained to some roof. His sister hated him and maybe now she had every right too. He had broken his promise and now Merle would die. He would die in a way that no one should have too.
Zac hadn't even realized anyone else had came into the bathroom until he heard the door to the shower open and he turned seeing Kate slip in.
Frowning at Zac, Kate slipped her arms around his waist as she kissed his shoulder, "It's not your fault what happened to Merle."
"Jessica blames me," Zac told her as he wiped his tears away. "She thinks it is."
"Well she's wrong," Kate whispered as she kissed Zac's shoulder again. "What happened to Merle was his own doing and an accident."
Zac forced a smile as he turned to face Kate, "Tell that to my sister tomorrow," he said before leaning in to kiss Kate on the lips. He was glad that she was trying to make him feel better. He was glad that he was back here with her. He had been so scared he would die on her and their baby.
Kissing Zac back Kate moved against the wall as she moaned out into his mouth. She was glad that he had made it back to her and she hated seeing him beat himself up over someone like Merle Dixon. That man didn't deserve anyone feeling sorry for him in her opinion.
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Avery who had left Merle's tent after comforting Jessica sighed before running a hand through her hair. She had only left long enough to get her pajamas from the tour bus and then she had told her sister she'd come back. She'd come back and join her so she wouldn't be alone for the night.
Looking up at the RV she raised an eyebrow as she saw Shane sitting on top of it under an umbrella since it was storming. Seeing him looking towards Lori's tent she rolled her eyes some but walked towards the ladder. Climbing up she sat down beside him. "You keep staring at that tent anymore intently and you may just burn it down," she laughed slightly.
Hearing Avery's voice Shane rolled his eyes, "Come to bitch at me again?" he asked her as he turned to look at her. "Cause if so I really don't wanna hear it girl."
Avery rolled her eyes as Shane called her girl. At least he didn't call her a little girl though like Daryl had. She hated being called a little girl. "No," she told him as she shook her head. "Just looked like you could use the company instead of giving death glares to a tent," she said honestly as she shrugged.
Shane sighed at Avery's words, "I should be happy he is back," he admitted. "But I'm not. I am trying to be but I'm not."
"Because it ruins you getting to screw his wife," Avery said honestly as she tried not to judge Shane for his actions. "Did you lie about him being dead?"
"No," Shane answered honestly. "I thought he was dead," he sighed as he looked away from Avery. "He seemed dead."
Forcing a smile Avery reached over and grabbed his hand, "You know Lori isn't the only one who can give you what you want," she muttered trying to keep her voice low in case Amy, Andrea or Dale were awake. "I could make you feel better tonight," she spoke doing what she knew best. She was going to let someone use her for their own needs.
Looking at Avery again Shane made a face as he contemplated her offer. She was attractive and maybe he could pretend she was Lori. Nodding his head he squeezed her hand before moving from the chair he was sitting in. He was supposed to be on look out duty but really tonight the only look out he would have been doing was staring at the tent where Lori now slept with Rick.
When Shane moved to her level she moved closer kissing him softly on the lips as she closed her eyes. Getting lost in the kiss she didn't allow herself to think of anything or anyone except for Shane and the fact that she was doing this for him. She had even been doing a good job of that until she felt him push her back onto the RV and she shivered at the wet and coldness of it all.
Biting her lip as he pulled away she watched as he took his shirt off and she did the same with hers before reaching out for his necklace with the number twenty-two on it and pulling him in for another kiss. This kiss much rougher than the last one. This one was one that she liked because for the first time since all of this started Avery felt alive even if she didn't feel in control of this situation. She felt alive and she could understand now why people were having sex during this. They wanted to feel alive or even feel comfort.
Letting her hands find their way towards Shane's pants she tilted her head to the side as he kissed her neck. Closing her eyes again she undid them and slipped them off along with his boxers feeling him finishing undressing her not long after. The moment he entered her she couldn't help but gasp out. He hadn't been gentle and of course he had wasted no time moving inside of her. He was fucking her and she was letting him. She was letting him have his pleasure even if doing it out here in the open made her feel so used and dirty and cheap. It wasn't like it was the first time she had felt this way.
"You feel so good," Shane muttered out onto Avery's skin as he kept moving inside of her. His movements were staying fast and he kept imagining that it was Lori below him. That he was inside the woman he had been with almost every day since the start of this.
"So do you," Avery whispered back not even sure Shane could hear her. It was a lie but it's not like he had to know. Just as long as it helped to make him feel better.
Avery opened the bus door after checking everywhere outside for Kate. Coming up empty handed she had decided to check the last place she knew of. The tour bus. Shutting the door behind her she chewed on her lip, "Kate?" she asked not seeing the brunette out front anywhere. "I've checked every where else. I know you are here."
Not getting a response Avery walked farther back on the bus, coming to a stop when she found Kate sitting in the back room. "I was looking for you," she spoke as she went to sit down next to her sister-in-law. "Shane's an ass."
"But Shane was right," Kate said as she turned to look at Avery. "Zac's trapped in Atlanta and he's never coming back. All because he just wanted to contribute," she frowned before laughing bitterly. "I never even said goodbye to him today because as much as I was scared that he wouldn't come back I thought he would and I thought there would be time to yell at him."
Avery frowned as well pulling Kate to her, "You may still get a chance to yell at him," she spoke trying to be optimistic but deep down she feared Zac would never come back. That Merle would never come back and it was that thought that scared her too. If Merle was gone for good it would ruin her sister. It would ruin Daryl.
Why the fuck did she even care what happened to Daryl? He was nothing to her. Never had been yet something had changed unknowingly for her it seemed. Something had changed and she didn't know why nor did she like it. She didn't like the fact that she was beginning to care for the youngest Dixon brother.
"You know I keep thinking about when I realized I loved him," Kate muttered as a lump formed in her throat. "I kept feeling as if I was falling more and more for him. I didn't want to admit it though because I had dated Isaac before. I was scared Zac would be freaked out by that but then one day I literally fell," she laughed trying to fight off the tears that wanted to come. "He caught me and I knew the moment our eyes met I was in love with that man and I confessed it right then and there. I always wanted to tell our future kids that story but now I'll never get too. Without Zac this baby and I our as good as dead."
Listening to Kate's story Avery felt guilty as her mind went to her hunting time with Daryl and how she had fallen and he had caught her. The act of him catching her was what had to have changed how she felt towards him. It's what made her see that he wasn't as bad as Merle but if he kept looking to his brother for everything he could be.
"Daryl caught me when I fell," she muttered without really even thinking. The words coming out of her mouth before she could stop them. When she realized what she had said she blushed and hoped Kate hadn't heard her.
Kate raised an eyebrow at Avery's words but she didn't say anything. Instead she decided to keep talking about Zac even if it hurt her. Talking about him was the only thing reminding her she had to keep going now. At least until she died somehow.
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"Best not to dwell on it," Zac spoke as he watched Rick from where he sat in the back. He could tell the man was dwelling on Merle being stuck on the roof. "Merle getting left behind. Nobody's going to be sad he didn't come back," he said honestly even though his mind flashed to Jessica and then Daryl. "Except maybe my sister who is semi dating the bastard and Daryl."
"Daryl?" Rick asked as he turned to look at Zac briefly.
"His brother," Zac answered as he heard the siren wailing again. This time as it came closer he realized it was a car alarm and the moment he heard a man hollering or screaming for joy he knew then where Glenn had went. Glenn had stolen a car.
"At least somebody's having a good day," Morales smiled from the passenger seat after watching Glenn pass by the truck.
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After chatting with Kate for a bit longer Avery finally convinced her to cheer up some. At least a bit to come back outside. "If Shane's an ass again just hit him and blame pregnancy emotions," Avery laughed as she shut the bus door once Kate was outside.
"That sounds tempting actually," Kate teased as she walked with Avery to the front of the RV. Coming to a pause she took in her surroundings. A smile creeping on her face as she watched Miranda try to break her kids up from fighting over a toy. Nikki of course wasn't far off though her own boys seemed pre-occupied with playing in the mud and Kate knew they'd need a shower tonight.
Spotting Amy sitting in a chair under the awning Avery looked at Kate, "You okay to be left alone?" she asked as she raised an eyebrow.
Kate nodded, "I'm fine. If I get depressed again I'll just stay out here and remember that I have to keep moving on. For me and the baby as long as I can," she shrugged. Her words may have been lies but Avery didn't have to know that.
Giving Kate a smile Avery left her and went to go sit down in the free chair beside Amy though before she could say anything she paused hearing what sounded like a car alarm. Sitting up from the chair she moved out from under the awning looking up at Dale. She could hear the others coming up here too.
"Talk to me Dale," Shane said as he stood from where he had been with Lori and Carl.
Dale who had been looking through a pair of binoculars couldn't see anything even though he sure could hear it. "I can't tell yet," he answered Shane.
"Is it them?" Avery asked feeling slightly hopeful as she gave Amy a smile. Maybe their people had made it out of Atlanta. "Are they back?"
Looking through the binoculars again Dale just shook his head, "I'll be damned," he muttered as he saw a red sports car coming to the camp.
"What is it?" Amy asked at Dale's words.
"Stolen car is my guess," Dale answered as he put the binoculars down.
Hearing Dale's answer Avery just made a face but stayed frozen in her spot. Watching the car pull into camp she bit her lip and held her breath hoping for good news. When she saw Glenn step out of the car she moved from her spot walking closer to the car.
"Holy crap turn that damn thing off," Dale told Glenn as he looked down at the boy from where he stood on the RV.
Glenn looked up at Dale throwing his arms up, "I don't know how," he said honestly.
Avery couldn't help but chuckle at that or the fact that Shane was now being an ass to Glenn. Being rude about him poping the hood while at the same time Amy asked about her sister. It was Amy's question that Avery was more concerned about. If her sister was okay then the others had to be too.
"What's going on?" Jessica asked as she walked down to stand beside Avery. She had been taking a nap until the car alarm had woken her up.
Before Avery could answer her she heard Glenn telling Amy that Andrea was okay and she put her hand up to shush Jessica.
"Everybody is fine," Glenn muttered as he looked at Amy and the rest of the people who had gathered around. "Well Merle not so much," he retracted his comment.
Hearing that Merle wasn't okay Jessica looked at Avery, "What the hell is going on?" she asked her sister. "And don't shush me."
Sighing Avery ran a hand through her hair. She had been happy to hear the others were okay but it was Glenn's words about Merle that made her stomach drop, "The group got stuck in a department store. We all thought they were gone," she said as she smiled. "I don't know what he means about Merle though."
Before Jessica could reply to her though she watched as a truck now pulled into the camp. A truck she really hoped was carrying her brother.
Watching as the first person got out Avery smiled some seeing Andrea who ran to meet Amy in a hug. Spotting Zac coming behind Andrea, Avery smiled more and she turned her head in time to see Kate running to meet him.
Feeling someone run into him Zac grinned as he looked to see Kate, pulling her into a hug. "I never thought I'd see you again," he muttered as he held her closer to him.
"You are a welcome site," Dale said as he looked at Zac.
Zac just laughed before pulling away from Kate and walking to Dale to hug the old man. He had grown semi close to him over the time at camp. He had helped him or tried to help him on a few occasions of working on his RV though he usually ruined it or made it worse.
"Thought we had lost you folks for sure," Dale admitted honestly as he pulled away from the hug.
"How did ya'll get out of there anyway?" Shane asked watching as everyone embraced and welcomed each other back.
"New guy," Glenn answered Shane's question as he scrunched up his face. "He got us out."
Shane looked at Glenn feeling confused, "New guy?" he asked him.
"Yeah some crazy vato who just got into town," Morales answered as he held his wife and kids close to him. "Hey helicopter boy, come say hello," he called out to Rick. "Guys a cop like you."
Avery who had been watching the exchange chewed on her lip as she looked to Shane. The moment his face changed as the new guy came into view she raised an eyebrow. The look was one of recognition. Could Shane really know this man? It was when she heard Carl holler out dad that she had gotten her answer. The new guy, the one who had saved their group was Lori's husband. A man who was supposed to be dead.
Turning her head to look as Lori and Carl embraced the man Avery chewed on her lip as she saw the look Lori shot Shane. It was one she'd hate to be on the receiving end of and she was sure if looks could kill Shane Walsh would have died on the spot.
Out of the corner of her eye Avery watched as Jessica stalked off clearly concerned about Merle who hadn't returned with the rest of them.
"I should go after her," Zac spoke to Kate as he watched Jessica stalk off. He needed to fill her in on what had happened to Merle.
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Later that night after telling Jessica about Merle, Zac sat at the campfire with Kate. Even now holding his wife he had zoned out. All he could remember was Jessica yelling that she hated him and how she had completely broken apart at the news of Merle being gone. Zac had wanted to stay and comfort her but Avery had came and convinced him to go saying she'd take care of Jessica for now.
It was when Dale mentioned Daryl though and if there had been any thought given of what they were gonna do that brought Zac out of his thoughts. Daryl would be another person upset with this predicament but at least Zac hadn't made no promises he failed on to Daryl.
"I'll tell him," T-Dog offered as he looked down at the campfire. Ever since leaving the department store things had been like a daze for him and he kept getting eat up with more guilt over the fact that he had dropped the key. "I dropped the key it's on me."
"I cuffed him," Rick spoke up feeling like it should be him who told Merle's brother. "That makes him mine."
"Guys it's not a competition," Zac sighed as he held Kate closer to his body. Ever since he had thought he would never see her again he couldn't stop holding her. Wanting her as close as he could have her. "I don't mean to bring race into this but it might sound better coming from a white guy," he finished his statement as he turned to look at T-Dog.
Closing his eyes T-Dog sighed, "I did what I did. Hell if I'm gonna hide from it."
"We could lie," Nikki added in as she rested her head on Isaac's shoulder.
"Or tell the truth," Andrea said as she looked across the fire at Nikki. "Merle was out of control. Something had to be done or he'd have gotten us killed," she said as she looked away from Nikki and then towards Lori. "Your husband did what was necessary and if Merle got left behind it is nobodies fault but Merle's."
Dale made a face at those words. Those words would just make Daryl worse. "And that's what we tell Daryl?" he asked sarcastically. "I don't see a rational discussion to be had from that, do you?" he asked as he turned to Andrea who was beside him. When she didn't answer but only looked down he continued, "Word to the wise we are going to have our hands full when he gets back from his hunt."
"I was scared and I ran," T-Dog said as he looked away from the campfire. "I'm not ashamed of it."
Zac looked over at T-Dog, "We were all scared. We all ran," he shrugged not getting what the man was trying to say. "What's your point?"
"I stopped long enough to chain that door," T-Dog finally admitted to the others. "Staircase is narrow. Maybe a half a dozen geeks can squeeze against it at any one time. It's not enough to break through there. Not that chain. Not that padlock," he said shaking his head. "My point Dixon's alive and he's still up there handcuffed on that roof. That's on us," he sighed before standing up and heading towards his tent.
After T-Dog got done talking Zac stood up as well without even saying a word to Kate. Heading towards the tour bus he climbed inside being careful not to wake the others who were in there sleeping. Finding his pajamas he walked into the bathroom and shut the door.
Stripping out of his dirty clothes he turned the water on and stepped in. It was when he was in the shower under the water that he broke down crying. His sister was breaking down over a man who was still alive chained to some roof. His sister hated him and maybe now she had every right too. He had broken his promise and now Merle would die. He would die in a way that no one should have too.
Zac hadn't even realized anyone else had came into the bathroom until he heard the door to the shower open and he turned seeing Kate slip in.
Frowning at Zac, Kate slipped her arms around his waist as she kissed his shoulder, "It's not your fault what happened to Merle."
"Jessica blames me," Zac told her as he wiped his tears away. "She thinks it is."
"Well she's wrong," Kate whispered as she kissed Zac's shoulder again. "What happened to Merle was his own doing and an accident."
Zac forced a smile as he turned to face Kate, "Tell that to my sister tomorrow," he said before leaning in to kiss Kate on the lips. He was glad that she was trying to make him feel better. He was glad that he was back here with her. He had been so scared he would die on her and their baby.
Kissing Zac back Kate moved against the wall as she moaned out into his mouth. She was glad that he had made it back to her and she hated seeing him beat himself up over someone like Merle Dixon. That man didn't deserve anyone feeling sorry for him in her opinion.
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Avery who had left Merle's tent after comforting Jessica sighed before running a hand through her hair. She had only left long enough to get her pajamas from the tour bus and then she had told her sister she'd come back. She'd come back and join her so she wouldn't be alone for the night.
Looking up at the RV she raised an eyebrow as she saw Shane sitting on top of it under an umbrella since it was storming. Seeing him looking towards Lori's tent she rolled her eyes some but walked towards the ladder. Climbing up she sat down beside him. "You keep staring at that tent anymore intently and you may just burn it down," she laughed slightly.
Hearing Avery's voice Shane rolled his eyes, "Come to bitch at me again?" he asked her as he turned to look at her. "Cause if so I really don't wanna hear it girl."
Avery rolled her eyes as Shane called her girl. At least he didn't call her a little girl though like Daryl had. She hated being called a little girl. "No," she told him as she shook her head. "Just looked like you could use the company instead of giving death glares to a tent," she said honestly as she shrugged.
Shane sighed at Avery's words, "I should be happy he is back," he admitted. "But I'm not. I am trying to be but I'm not."
"Because it ruins you getting to screw his wife," Avery said honestly as she tried not to judge Shane for his actions. "Did you lie about him being dead?"
"No," Shane answered honestly. "I thought he was dead," he sighed as he looked away from Avery. "He seemed dead."
Forcing a smile Avery reached over and grabbed his hand, "You know Lori isn't the only one who can give you what you want," she muttered trying to keep her voice low in case Amy, Andrea or Dale were awake. "I could make you feel better tonight," she spoke doing what she knew best. She was going to let someone use her for their own needs.
Looking at Avery again Shane made a face as he contemplated her offer. She was attractive and maybe he could pretend she was Lori. Nodding his head he squeezed her hand before moving from the chair he was sitting in. He was supposed to be on look out duty but really tonight the only look out he would have been doing was staring at the tent where Lori now slept with Rick.
When Shane moved to her level she moved closer kissing him softly on the lips as she closed her eyes. Getting lost in the kiss she didn't allow herself to think of anything or anyone except for Shane and the fact that she was doing this for him. She had even been doing a good job of that until she felt him push her back onto the RV and she shivered at the wet and coldness of it all.
Biting her lip as he pulled away she watched as he took his shirt off and she did the same with hers before reaching out for his necklace with the number twenty-two on it and pulling him in for another kiss. This kiss much rougher than the last one. This one was one that she liked because for the first time since all of this started Avery felt alive even if she didn't feel in control of this situation. She felt alive and she could understand now why people were having sex during this. They wanted to feel alive or even feel comfort.
Letting her hands find their way towards Shane's pants she tilted her head to the side as he kissed her neck. Closing her eyes again she undid them and slipped them off along with his boxers feeling him finishing undressing her not long after. The moment he entered her she couldn't help but gasp out. He hadn't been gentle and of course he had wasted no time moving inside of her. He was fucking her and she was letting him. She was letting him have his pleasure even if doing it out here in the open made her feel so used and dirty and cheap. It wasn't like it was the first time she had felt this way.
"You feel so good," Shane muttered out onto Avery's skin as he kept moving inside of her. His movements were staying fast and he kept imagining that it was Lori below him. That he was inside the woman he had been with almost every day since the start of this.
"So do you," Avery whispered back not even sure Shane could hear her. It was a lie but it's not like he had to know. Just as long as it helped to make him feel better.