Radioactive Chapter Six
Coming off the bus after giving the news to Taylor about his daughter Jessica frowned turning to Avery who was behind her and also had given bad news to Taylor. "I'm afraid for him," she said as she chewed on her lip. "I mean did you see his face. He looks as if he has lost all hope for anything."
Avery nodded, "I did but he has Ezra in there with him right now. Ezra can help him for the time being," she said as she looked at her older sister. Truth be told Jessica looked just like Taylor. Like she had lost all hope as well. "How are you doing? I mean you lost Joe."
When Avery mentioned Joe, Jessica shook her head, "He's gone and I have to find a way to accept that," she spoke knowing she didn't want to cry right now. She didn't want to show that she felt like shit and that Joe had been her only motivating force to even try to survive this crazy world. She was afraid it would make her look bad. She was afraid Avery would hate her if she knew that she wanted to die because she had lost Joe and his death affected her more than the other deaths.
"But can you accept that?" Avery asked curiously as she crossed her arms over her chest. "I mean you and Joe were together for five years. You guys were talking about marriage."
Closing her eyes at Avery's reminder of her and Joe talking about marriage Jessica swallowed a lump in her throat, "What do you want me to do Avery?" she snapped as she opened her eyes. "Do you want me to admit I am not fine? I wish I had died today too but instead I'm here with no hope. I don't have a reason to live now and a part of me wishes for my death to come soon. Are you happy now?" she asked as she felt some tears go down her cheeks.
When Avery didn't say anything else and just stood there shocked at her outburst Jessica turned her back and headed towards where the campfire was. She didn't want to stand around while Avery had a pity party for her. She would just wallow in her own grief alone.
Sitting down once she reached the campfire Jessica looked beside her making a face as she saw she had sat down next an old redneck man who could probably kill her in her sleep if she looked at him wrong. She had been hoping she wouldn't sit too close to anyone but it seemed that karma just hated her.
Merle felt eyes on him and he turned seeing a cute little blonde girl sitting beside him. He hoped to go god she was legal because he knew he wanted a piece of her but then again he'd be fine with a piece of any of these women here who were over eighteen. He also had to admit that if it wasn't for the cop sitting across from him he'd probably lower his limits to sixteen.
"You see something you like sugar?" he asked as he moved closer to her a smirk playing on his lips. "Because ole' Merle here can probably give it to you if you beg nice enough."
"I'm sure my sister doesn't want anything from you," Avery muttered as she sat down beside Jessica and eyed the man who had been speaking to her. He looked like a no good piece of shit and the guy next to him didn't look much better. She wouldn't trust her life with men like them.
Merle glared at the girl who called herself the blonde's sister, "No one asked your opinion. I bet your one of them opinionated bitches huh?" he asked as he eyed the brunette.
Avery glared more at the older man, "Fuck you," she muttered under her breath before looking away from him.
"I think I'd rather fuck blondie," Merle replied watching as the blonde looked away too a blush appearing on her cheeks.
Blushing at the man who called himself Merle's comments Jessica looked away from him keeping her eyes on the fire that was going. She didn't find Merle attractive but she'd be lying if she said his words no matter how crude they had been had sort of made her feel better for a few minutes. They had made her forget she had lost Joe.
Staying silent Jessica just listened as the other people began to talk more. Each of them introducing themselves or sharing stories. There was the cop who she had thought said his name was Shane. He was here with his best friend's wife Lori and Lori's son Carl. Apparently Lori's husband had died. Then there were of course the two people she knew because they had been in the van with her and Nikki.
Glenn was kind of geeky in Jessica's opinion but he did seem to have a knowledge of the backstreets of Atlanta and after T-Dog had picked him up he had lead them onto the crowded highway. Then there were the three people who Jessica had learned had come to save some of her own family. The man who owned the RV was named Dale and before picking up her family he had saved two blonde sisters named Andrea and Amy.
Sometime during the conversation she swore she heard Lori mention the other people that had helped them set up camp here as well. A small family who seemed to be off by themselves at another fire. Jessica thought the names Lori had mentioned were Ed,Carol, and Sophia.
It was after that she checked out. Barely registering the names of the others only getting bits and pieces. A family with the last name Morales. A man named Jim and a woman named Jacqui. The other man beside Merle she thought had said his name was Daryl.
Daryl and Merle both of them had such hickish names that it came as no surprise to her when Merle called him his baby brother. It also was no surprise to Jessica that he seemed just as rough as Merle though what did surprise her was when Daryl started talking about a story from his childhood. How he had seen a Chupacabra. It was then Jessica knew those two brothers were probably slightly crazy but right now she wasn't sure if she could fault anyone for being crazy. She felt like she was crazy too especially because all she could think of was finding ways to die and be with Joe again. She needed something to cure her pain but she doubted even Merle's suggestive comments would help this time.
It was when Jessica heard Merle mutter that he needed to go get drunk thanks to Daryl telling such a crazy story that Jessica perked up some. Again she found herself not surprised that the world had went to shit and this man had packed the booze. Booze she was sure she wanted even if it meant begging Merle for them.
Waiting a few minutes after Merle left Jessica excused herself making up a lie about joining Taylor on the bus before leaving. Walking fast it didn't take her no time to catch up with Merle. "Merle," she called out once she could see his back.
Merle came to a stop when he heard someone saying his name. Turning around a smirk again played on his lips as he saw blondie following behind him. "Come to beg me now for what it is you want?"
Jessica made a face shaking her head, "I ain't begging for anything. I don't beg," she spoke as she locked eyes with him. "But I do want some of your alcohol and maybe after a few drinks I might give you what you want from me," she nodded as she took a step closer to him. "But I ain't begging."
Merle smirked more as the blonde stepped closer to him, "We'll see about the begging once you get a few drinks in ya," he nodded as he reached out and took her hand, leading her to the tent he'd be sharing with Daryl. A part of him hoping his brother wouldn't show up to ruin the fun he expected to be having soon.
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Coming out of Merle's tent sometime later Jessica fixed her shirt not even paying attention to where she was going until she felt herself run into someone. Looking up once she did she smiled seeing Avery. "I..I wasn't expecting," she slurred a giggle escaping her lips.
"Obviously," Avery muttered sarcastically making a face at the alcohol she could smell on Jessica. She was also sure she could smell sex on her too and that disgusted her. It disgusted her that Jessica would sleep with a man like Merle and that she would do it so close to losing Joe. "I can't believe you," she said shaking her head. "Getting drunk and having sex with a man you barely know. Did you just have sex with him so he'd give you alcohol?"
At Avery's words Jessica looked down feeling her cheeks get hot. She hated the way that Avery was trying to be a mother to her. Their mother was dead now and she didn't want another. She didn't want anything right now except to forget things and the alcohol and the sex had helped with that.
"You'd know all about having sex to get what you want wouldn't you?" Jessica asked harshly as she looked up again locking eyes with Avery. "I mean there was a reason why you were dad's favorite wasn't there?" she asked another question as she stepped closer to Avery though she almost lost her balance and fell. "I bet your glad he is dead huh? No more having to give him what he wants so you can get things."
Avery stood there frozen at Jessica's words and she shook her head. She had thought no one knew about the abuse she had suffered from their dad. "I..I wasn't," she spoke as she shook her head trying to deny Jessica's words.
Jessica scoffed after Avery spoke, "I saw you two. The night of your fifteenth birthday. I bet he's the reason you only let Jeremy fuck you a handful of times," she nodded knowing she was being mean now but she couldn't stop herself. She was pissed at Avery for trying to be her mother, she was pissed at losing Joe. She was just fucking pissed.
Feeling tears in her eyes Avery raised her hand up and slapped Jessica hard, "I didn't willingly have sex with him. I'm not that sick so if you think that there is something wrong with you. I'm sorry I worried about you. I'm sorry I don't want to see you with men like Merle and his brother," she spat before turning and walking towards the bus not even caring as she pushed past Merle's younger brother a little too harshly. She just wanted to get away from her sister right now.
Watching Avery walk off Jessica held her cheek as she just stood there. She knew she had been in the wrong and Avery had every reason to slap her. She had fucked things up and again even with the alcohol in her system she wished she were dead.
Shaking her head she finally made herself move as she walked to the bus hoping she could avoid Avery for the rest of the night.
Coming off the bus after giving the news to Taylor about his daughter Jessica frowned turning to Avery who was behind her and also had given bad news to Taylor. "I'm afraid for him," she said as she chewed on her lip. "I mean did you see his face. He looks as if he has lost all hope for anything."
Avery nodded, "I did but he has Ezra in there with him right now. Ezra can help him for the time being," she said as she looked at her older sister. Truth be told Jessica looked just like Taylor. Like she had lost all hope as well. "How are you doing? I mean you lost Joe."
When Avery mentioned Joe, Jessica shook her head, "He's gone and I have to find a way to accept that," she spoke knowing she didn't want to cry right now. She didn't want to show that she felt like shit and that Joe had been her only motivating force to even try to survive this crazy world. She was afraid it would make her look bad. She was afraid Avery would hate her if she knew that she wanted to die because she had lost Joe and his death affected her more than the other deaths.
"But can you accept that?" Avery asked curiously as she crossed her arms over her chest. "I mean you and Joe were together for five years. You guys were talking about marriage."
Closing her eyes at Avery's reminder of her and Joe talking about marriage Jessica swallowed a lump in her throat, "What do you want me to do Avery?" she snapped as she opened her eyes. "Do you want me to admit I am not fine? I wish I had died today too but instead I'm here with no hope. I don't have a reason to live now and a part of me wishes for my death to come soon. Are you happy now?" she asked as she felt some tears go down her cheeks.
When Avery didn't say anything else and just stood there shocked at her outburst Jessica turned her back and headed towards where the campfire was. She didn't want to stand around while Avery had a pity party for her. She would just wallow in her own grief alone.
Sitting down once she reached the campfire Jessica looked beside her making a face as she saw she had sat down next an old redneck man who could probably kill her in her sleep if she looked at him wrong. She had been hoping she wouldn't sit too close to anyone but it seemed that karma just hated her.
Merle felt eyes on him and he turned seeing a cute little blonde girl sitting beside him. He hoped to go god she was legal because he knew he wanted a piece of her but then again he'd be fine with a piece of any of these women here who were over eighteen. He also had to admit that if it wasn't for the cop sitting across from him he'd probably lower his limits to sixteen.
"You see something you like sugar?" he asked as he moved closer to her a smirk playing on his lips. "Because ole' Merle here can probably give it to you if you beg nice enough."
"I'm sure my sister doesn't want anything from you," Avery muttered as she sat down beside Jessica and eyed the man who had been speaking to her. He looked like a no good piece of shit and the guy next to him didn't look much better. She wouldn't trust her life with men like them.
Merle glared at the girl who called herself the blonde's sister, "No one asked your opinion. I bet your one of them opinionated bitches huh?" he asked as he eyed the brunette.
Avery glared more at the older man, "Fuck you," she muttered under her breath before looking away from him.
"I think I'd rather fuck blondie," Merle replied watching as the blonde looked away too a blush appearing on her cheeks.
Blushing at the man who called himself Merle's comments Jessica looked away from him keeping her eyes on the fire that was going. She didn't find Merle attractive but she'd be lying if she said his words no matter how crude they had been had sort of made her feel better for a few minutes. They had made her forget she had lost Joe.
Staying silent Jessica just listened as the other people began to talk more. Each of them introducing themselves or sharing stories. There was the cop who she had thought said his name was Shane. He was here with his best friend's wife Lori and Lori's son Carl. Apparently Lori's husband had died. Then there were of course the two people she knew because they had been in the van with her and Nikki.
Glenn was kind of geeky in Jessica's opinion but he did seem to have a knowledge of the backstreets of Atlanta and after T-Dog had picked him up he had lead them onto the crowded highway. Then there were the three people who Jessica had learned had come to save some of her own family. The man who owned the RV was named Dale and before picking up her family he had saved two blonde sisters named Andrea and Amy.
Sometime during the conversation she swore she heard Lori mention the other people that had helped them set up camp here as well. A small family who seemed to be off by themselves at another fire. Jessica thought the names Lori had mentioned were Ed,Carol, and Sophia.
It was after that she checked out. Barely registering the names of the others only getting bits and pieces. A family with the last name Morales. A man named Jim and a woman named Jacqui. The other man beside Merle she thought had said his name was Daryl.
Daryl and Merle both of them had such hickish names that it came as no surprise to her when Merle called him his baby brother. It also was no surprise to Jessica that he seemed just as rough as Merle though what did surprise her was when Daryl started talking about a story from his childhood. How he had seen a Chupacabra. It was then Jessica knew those two brothers were probably slightly crazy but right now she wasn't sure if she could fault anyone for being crazy. She felt like she was crazy too especially because all she could think of was finding ways to die and be with Joe again. She needed something to cure her pain but she doubted even Merle's suggestive comments would help this time.
It was when Jessica heard Merle mutter that he needed to go get drunk thanks to Daryl telling such a crazy story that Jessica perked up some. Again she found herself not surprised that the world had went to shit and this man had packed the booze. Booze she was sure she wanted even if it meant begging Merle for them.
Waiting a few minutes after Merle left Jessica excused herself making up a lie about joining Taylor on the bus before leaving. Walking fast it didn't take her no time to catch up with Merle. "Merle," she called out once she could see his back.
Merle came to a stop when he heard someone saying his name. Turning around a smirk again played on his lips as he saw blondie following behind him. "Come to beg me now for what it is you want?"
Jessica made a face shaking her head, "I ain't begging for anything. I don't beg," she spoke as she locked eyes with him. "But I do want some of your alcohol and maybe after a few drinks I might give you what you want from me," she nodded as she took a step closer to him. "But I ain't begging."
Merle smirked more as the blonde stepped closer to him, "We'll see about the begging once you get a few drinks in ya," he nodded as he reached out and took her hand, leading her to the tent he'd be sharing with Daryl. A part of him hoping his brother wouldn't show up to ruin the fun he expected to be having soon.
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Coming out of Merle's tent sometime later Jessica fixed her shirt not even paying attention to where she was going until she felt herself run into someone. Looking up once she did she smiled seeing Avery. "I..I wasn't expecting," she slurred a giggle escaping her lips.
"Obviously," Avery muttered sarcastically making a face at the alcohol she could smell on Jessica. She was also sure she could smell sex on her too and that disgusted her. It disgusted her that Jessica would sleep with a man like Merle and that she would do it so close to losing Joe. "I can't believe you," she said shaking her head. "Getting drunk and having sex with a man you barely know. Did you just have sex with him so he'd give you alcohol?"
At Avery's words Jessica looked down feeling her cheeks get hot. She hated the way that Avery was trying to be a mother to her. Their mother was dead now and she didn't want another. She didn't want anything right now except to forget things and the alcohol and the sex had helped with that.
"You'd know all about having sex to get what you want wouldn't you?" Jessica asked harshly as she looked up again locking eyes with Avery. "I mean there was a reason why you were dad's favorite wasn't there?" she asked another question as she stepped closer to Avery though she almost lost her balance and fell. "I bet your glad he is dead huh? No more having to give him what he wants so you can get things."
Avery stood there frozen at Jessica's words and she shook her head. She had thought no one knew about the abuse she had suffered from their dad. "I..I wasn't," she spoke as she shook her head trying to deny Jessica's words.
Jessica scoffed after Avery spoke, "I saw you two. The night of your fifteenth birthday. I bet he's the reason you only let Jeremy fuck you a handful of times," she nodded knowing she was being mean now but she couldn't stop herself. She was pissed at Avery for trying to be her mother, she was pissed at losing Joe. She was just fucking pissed.
Feeling tears in her eyes Avery raised her hand up and slapped Jessica hard, "I didn't willingly have sex with him. I'm not that sick so if you think that there is something wrong with you. I'm sorry I worried about you. I'm sorry I don't want to see you with men like Merle and his brother," she spat before turning and walking towards the bus not even caring as she pushed past Merle's younger brother a little too harshly. She just wanted to get away from her sister right now.
Watching Avery walk off Jessica held her cheek as she just stood there. She knew she had been in the wrong and Avery had every reason to slap her. She had fucked things up and again even with the alcohol in her system she wished she were dead.
Shaking her head she finally made herself move as she walked to the bus hoping she could avoid Avery for the rest of the night.